Nowadays, I always have a fight with him. Sometimes I just don't know if I love him truly or not.
At that moment, he sent me a text.
'Hanya kau yang aku cinta. Tiada org lain selain kau. Sebab pilihan aku hanya kau. Kau satu-satu nya untuk aku. Tolong aku merayu. Datang kembali seperti dulu. Aku merindui kau yang dulu. Tolong aku mohon pada kau. Aku ade kau saja. Aku nak kau macam dulu. Aku rindu pelukan kau'
Yes I'm sad. I make him suffer. I lied to myself, to him, to all people.
I don't love anyone right now. But at the same time I do want him.
Ya Allah, I'm in dilemma. What should I do? Left him or stay?
Seriusly I need him in my life but I don't love him like he do.
He's craving for my love. He really need me.
At this moment, I only need a friend. Ikmal.